overwhelmed

i am seeing how my bosses work and the pressure it takes to make this organization run. i am seeing the brunt of the burden on their shoulders in trying to help a world full of poverty and injustice. i am seeing how its taking a toll on their health and their minds, the pressure of the world's needs, the pressure of peers with different opinions, the pressure of making these opinions unified in running with the vision that Jesus gave us.

it is heavy. a heavy burden to carry. i am just looking in and i see it. i feel it.

and then our nation goes wild when politicians start spending the people's money on extravagant personal whims. everyone is affected. either one becomes angry or one becomes apathetic.

where do i stand? do i blame the world for its impossibly unquenchable needs? do i blame people and politicians for being corrupt? do i blame myself for being angry or apathetic? or do i blame God for letting all these things happen?

... or do i really need to point fingers so i could have some security that there's someone to blame why these are all happening?

i am overwhelmed. I REALLY DONT KNOW. but i choose to appeal to God for intervention. there are just some, well, A LOT of things that i do not know or begin to understand.

i appeal to you God for help in the ministry you have placed on my workplace. we are only after all just working the best way we can in the little way we know but you, you are the one who actually makes this work! i appeal to you on behalf of my nation which is crying out for justice and righteousness. you are not deaf to our cries and you are not blind to what is happening. you have placed and pieced such a generation for such a time as this. you know what is happening more than i would ever understand. and i choose to believe that you are GREATER. GREATER are you who made this world than the giants that try to oppress it.

as for me, i think i would just do what im supposed to do at this time. i am part of this generational dream - this dream God has for this generation, which only works as i continue doing my part, however small it may be. however mundane it may look like.